Sunday, November 4, 2012

At the crossroads

I am so depressed. I believe that I do not deserve this kind of life. Almost every night I cry myself to sleep. I miss my husband and I know for a fact that I am still hoping that somehow he will have a change of heart. My good friend said that I should be open to having a new relationship and to finding the right guy who would love me and treat me right. Where do I find him?!?! Sigh! Plus, I need to have a better job with a better pay wherein I would feel happy and contented.

Friday, April 13, 2012

Reflection during Holy Week of 2012

2011 was a difficult time for me:
January 30, I found out that my husband is flirting (yet again) with another woman so I left their house and lived with my maternal grandparents.
My maternal grandfather passed away in June.
I lost my managerial job due to redundancy in November.
My husband filed for annulment last December.

It's only now that I realized how God is slowly leading me to the right path and that He is humbling me.
I am still hurting that my relationship with my husband didn't work out however it made me realize that I am fortunate enough to: experience how it is to love and be loved, be a part of the loving and happy Pargas family, know and feel that I have some family and friends who understands and loves me unconditionally, learn how to accept and ask forgiveness for my mistakes, ask help when I need it the most, and forgive those who have hurt me.
When my family lost Lolo B, we had a chance to have time with my uncles (who hasn't come home for a long time) to celebrate Lolo's life. I came to realize that life is too short thus I have to live a happy life with a purpose.
I might have lost a high-paying job but now I have one (I even thought that I wouldn't have the patience and experience to do it) with less pressure, better schedule and serves a higher purpose.

Thank you Lord for I am blessed.


I like to travel and here are SOME PLACES THAT I WANT TO SEE:
  • Eiffel Tower in Paris
  • Mykonos, Greece
  • The Bahamas Islands
  • Christ the Redeemer in Rio de Janeiro, Brazil
  • The Playboy Mansion West in Los Angeles, CA
  • The Houses of Parliament with Big Ben and Tower Bridge in London
All that and so much more...

Sunday, February 19, 2012

Lead me, Lord

Dear God, I am confused and weary. Please guide me to the path that you want me to take. Amen!