I am so depressed. I believe that I do not deserve this kind of life. Almost every night I cry myself to sleep. I miss my husband and I know for a fact that I am still hoping that somehow he will have a change of heart. My good friend said that I should be open to having a new relationship and to finding the right guy who would love me and treat me right. Where do I find him?!?! Sigh! Plus, I need to have a better job with a better pay wherein I would feel happy and contented.